LoLo loves it when you're there...

I know you always are, in that metaphorical way that means I can count on you forever, no matter what; in that way that means I am your favourite person; in that way that means you love me just as much as I love you (or so you think).


What sucks though is... when you are not. When you are not there other than in still images of happy moments together; other than in lovely words stored within me, soft as the most heartfelt caress. Sometimes, I really need you to be there to talk about everything and nothing, to be silly together, to talk absolute nonsense, to joke about anything, to wish each other the most ludicrous goodnights, to say you miss me, for you to hear that I miss you like crazy too.


However small or even insignificant the moment, it makes my day.


And now, most times you're not - and I wish you were. And I do need you - lots. And I think of you - all the time. And there's an absence of you that I know is ficticious but so real at the same time. And I count the days till you're here, and I'd count the hours and minutes if it weren't for the little detail that neither of us can be bothered with doing that kind of math.


You mean the world to me. Not being able to talk to you is borderline unbearable... but please, don't you ever go, don't you ever leave my side.